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So I lost my job today.

The boss called and started off with something like "It's not the kind of thing I enjoy but..." and I pretty much already knew where it was going. It felt like I was being diagnosed with something terminal and all I could do was accept the diagnosis. He did his best to make it clear that "it's not you, it's us" and that the company is working desperately to cut costs and I'm just one of the things that has to go. Apparently they even have to downsize their office space.

Can't say I was surprised, though. For years it's felt like the company's been cutting back more and more. My first year as a full time employee, we all got a Christmas bonus. That was the last year I saw one. But every Thanksgiving they would give us all hams, or a kosher or vegetarian equivalent. One year, they suddenly switched to a cheaper company for the hams. Last year, they were dropped entirely.

Perhaps the kicker was a few months ago when we got a company-wide e-mail saying, "There's no reason to worry about the condition of the company! At all!"

So for a while now I've been feeling a bit uneasy, with fewer projects trickling in. I was subconsciously drawn to articles like, "How to spruce up your resume!" and "Best answers to interview questions!" I guess I was just sort of waiting for this to happen. I didn't see myself staying with this company forever, although I could've if they could afford me.

Anyway, as distressing as this is, it feels like it could also be an opportunity to find something bigger and better. Ideally I'd be able to get a government job for my next job. Already have some ideas where to try next, so we'll see.

Still, it really felt like time stopped today. It still felt like it came out of nowhere. And with my severance package being just two weeks' worth, I don't have a whole lot of leeway to work with. And even if I do find a place that's better, or pays more, or whatever, it'll still be a major change. But I feel like I can make it work.



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Apr. 19th, 2012 05:12 am (UTC)
I think even if you subconsciously feel as though something like this is coming, it still doesn't fully prepare you for the reality of it. Regardless, it sounds like you're hopeful and that this will be a positive change.

If you need any help, please do not hesitate to ask! Even if it's something as simple as looking over your resume. One of our analyzers is broken at work, so I have plenty of time this week to proofread stuff.
Apr. 19th, 2012 06:25 am (UTC)
Man, really sorry to hear about this. Best of luck finding new work; I'm sure you'll land on your feet soon, and if there's anything Nadia or I can do, just let us know.
Apr. 27th, 2012 06:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Wanted to reply earlier but had LJ issues. One thing I'm really disappointed about is that I have to cancel Otakon plans after skipping it for so many years... Was really looking forward to seeing you guys in person again!
Apr. 27th, 2012 11:54 pm (UTC)
That sucks, we were looking forward to seeing you again, too. =(

I hope we might still be able to meet up for the Wii U launch, at least....
Apr. 28th, 2012 12:57 am (UTC)
Yeah, I don't know yet if that will work... But when I get a new job, I'll see how much I can save away for that. The Wii U launch will be just the thing I need to unwind after this whole thing!!
Apr. 28th, 2012 01:09 am (UTC)
Fingers are crossed!
Apr. 19th, 2012 11:53 pm (UTC)
Ugh, sorry to hear about that, Shinks. I hope something new comes your way, soon... And let me know if I can do anything to help.
Apr. 27th, 2012 06:10 pm (UTC)
Thanks, it's nice to have the support! Still shopping around...
Apr. 21st, 2012 04:21 pm (UTC)
You're gonna find something ten times better than what you had, Georgicus. I'm really proud of you--you've already applied to other jobs! Your new job, whatever it ends up being, is gonna be fantastic! :)
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