But after that, Lulu started acting weird and I was afraid she was sick. She seemed okay during the storm itself, but no longer wanted to go out for walks and wouldn't eat anything. I was starting to freak out a little, because just before Kato died, he stopped eating. Lulu wasn't in the same physical condition, but still, just the fact she wasn't eating made me think of that and worried me even more.
I took her to the vet but they said she seemed okay. But I noticed she seemed to be doing better when she warmed up, so I wondered if the cold was getting to her. The weather was pretty warm before the storm... I got her back in her sweater (washed after she fell into the pond), turned up the thermostat a little, and got an electric blanket. That seemed to do the trick, because she was soon back to normal!
I feel like everything is getting back to normal now. Late last year I figured I needed to try getting into better shape, so I made plans to get that new exercise bike after I got back from my trip in December. And when I got Lulu, I started changing other things -- I was regular taking walks again, which I hadn't done since Kato died, and to make food similar to what she used to eat, I was cooking at home more.
Maybe I got so wrapped up with how many things were changing, but I started feeling like, "I'll get into better shape! I'm going to build something! I'll study this and that and teach myself an instrument!" Maybe it was from watching Groundhog Day on TV again... I feel like I was getting crazy and setting too many outlandish goals. But I guess when I thought Lulu was sick, things started falling apart and I came back down to Earth. It's not like I feel like quitting the things I've been doing, but now I just feel more worn down and back to normal. Things are as they have been and how they should be.
Things feel kind of dull and slow at the moment. Today alone has felt like half a week. Sometimes it feels like there is nothing going on, and the world outside my doors has stopped spinning. But occasionally there are signs the outside world still exists.