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Discontent

Haven't been feeling very good lately. My sleep schedule has gotten unusual and unpredictable lately, and it's been hard to focus my interest on things. I sort of dropped the games I was playing regularly. Cooking hasn't piqued my interest lately. I was working on gardening for a bit as well, but now I seem to be losing steam even there.

Things in general have seemed more disagreeable to me lately. I had little patience for April Fools' Day. And when that "Friday" song first came out, I joined everyone in being amused by it for a day, but it somehow felt like it got very old very quickly.

Maybe it's just stress from fretting over things like Japan, and the current mess in the US government? Work isn't particularly bad right now. I'm not really sure what the cause of it is.

I have been trying to shift my attention to other things... I haven't watched a lot of anime lately, so I tried getting into some more recent things like "Kore wa Zombie Desu Ka?" Earlier this week, my folks needed help moving a stone bench, and they suggested I have dinner and spend the night over there, so I did. And it did seem like a fun diversion, even though I see them all the time... Maybe it was just the change of pace?

In Kore wa Zombie, there is a character who's immortal but longs for death. When he gained his immortality, the world lost all its color to him. I used to be able to sympathize, thinking, everything has to die eventually, right? It's just a necessary part of life; it's the way things are. But lately I've started to think, would it be so bad to live forever, even if nothing could make you happy ever again? That in itself seems like it could be interesting in its own way.

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aruru
Apr. 8th, 2011 02:43 pm (UTC)
Hmm... it sounds like you might be in a slight funk? It happens sometimes, even if one isn't actually depressed or anything like that.

Best advice I can think of is to figure out ways in which you can break with your usual routine - perhaps go out and explore your new city and state a bit more than you already have for places you'd be comfortable hanging out in? I think you mentioned a while back about having found some comics shop(s) nearby - maybe make some small talk with the other people there, see if you find someone who's on your wavelength that'd be cool to hang with?

Also, if this stress and the lack of interest in things goes on for a few more weeks, you might want to consider asking a doctor about it - could be anything from lack of proper rest, or a nutritional deficiency, or pretty much anything.

*scratches head* Can't really think of any other suggestions at the moment, but I hope this helps.
shinkuu
Apr. 10th, 2011 01:27 am (UTC)
Yeah, probably a change of pace would be good... thanks!
woekitten
Apr. 8th, 2011 06:49 pm (UTC)
Man, there is something in the air, I think...I've been in a bit of a funk and suffering from some pretty weird/bad dreams over the past week. I agree that breaking your routine in small ways can help.

And you can always remind yourself that you're an awesome guy! Which reminds me, I sent you a thanks for the gifts you sent us, but I'm not sure if I have your current email address on file, so if you never got that, I apologise. And thanks again. ;)
shinkuu
Apr. 8th, 2011 06:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hopefully we can both shake off this funk! Glad you got the gifts, but yeah, I'm not sure if I saw an e-mail... I've switched over to my Gmail address (which is the same as my old Yahoo address). I still try to check the old one every once in a while, but sometimes things get buried in the spam... Sorry! Hope you enjoy the gifts!
graymary
Apr. 10th, 2011 12:32 am (UTC)
the entire WORLD is disagreeable lately. sorry you've had so much trouble sleeping. :( change of seasons, maybe? do you have bad allergies?
shinkuu
Apr. 10th, 2011 01:27 am (UTC)
Yeah, that's true, things have been bad everywhere... I have a ton of allergies, but they haven't seemed too bad around here! I wouldn't be surprised if it's related to the weather, with how it's been changing so much lately, flip-flopping between hot and cold.
pusuutah
Apr. 12th, 2011 08:49 am (UTC)
I’ve been into blogging for quite some time and this is definitely a great post.Cheers!

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